Here's To The Memories:Looking Back and Thinking

Over this past weekend, a friend broke down to me and told me that they were afraid of loosing me. I sat there, not knowing what to say, because I didn’t know what to say. I didn’t have an answer as to whether we’d be friends after high school, because both of us are going in two different directions.

Because of that moment, I’ve been thinking alot about memories lately and where I’m going to be after high school. I know that things are changing now but I don’t want to forget the old times, the good times and even the bad times, because they taught me life lessons that I don’t want to relearn again.

Making, keeping and loosing friends over the years, the fights, the long night talks, all the jokes and laughter I want to remember it all.

I’m so afraid that one day I’m going to forget it all and it’ll just be a distant memory. I want to remember these moments, as cliché as that may sound. These truly are some of the best times of our lives and I want to make the most of it.

So here’s to remembering the old times, the good times, the funny times and yes, even the bad times.

Change Is Inevitable

"Used To"-Daughtry

There’s a song that some of you may know and others may not know. Its called "Used To"-Daughtry. 

It make me think of the old times, with old friends that I’ve moved on from. I sometimes miss those days, even though they weren’t the best kind of friends that I could have had at the time.

Especially lately, I’ve been wanting that old friendship back but know that if I do actually make the initiative to get that friendship back, it’d be the worst mistake ever.

I guess I don’t like change.

All my life there has been change.

From moving house holds, to not really having any parents, to everything that’s happened with my cousin and my ex best friend in the past year, along with the friendship that I had with her, the changes that are now going on between  my cousin and one of my other friends.

Its crazy to think about how much has changed.

And how much still will change.

 I guess in time I’ll have to get used to it.

-Does anyone else have problems accepting things when they change?

From Here On

I got my first acceptance letter last night.
It feels crazy to even type that out.
Its like I'm thinking all the time now," Wow, I am a senior. I am graduating this year. And, I will be going to college next year."

Its crazy. All this financial aid stuff, signing up for ACTs and coming up with the money. I was thinking just a few minutes ago about what all I'm going to need for my apartment next year. I want to be out of school so bad. Yeah I'm going to miss my friends and the daily routine but I'm ready to be out of school.

I'm sick of having to get up every morning, get to school, learn stuff that I don't if I'll ever use,get the homework and then go home.
I just want it to be done and over with so that I can move out and get on with my life.
I've gone through 14 years of school.
14 whole years.

Its like,I'm ready. Ready to grow up, ready to move out. Be done with high school and just be free.

Are you ready to do the same?